August 7, 2005

I dunno...should I come back?
Julie

Well...I wanted to leave because when I post something, I don't get much feedback (exept for now! I was surprised!) and by not getting much feedback I assumed that I was not much interesting. Plus, you all seem to be very educated people and I'm not...well, I went to highschool but that's it! And I did not get my diploma back then! I skiped class a lot (I was a punk). I got my diploma only when I went back to school at 22 years of age! I went to college after to learn to be an educator so I could work in a daycare center. And they kicked me out after 7 months of studying hard and with good grades! Anyway, all this to say that I feel inferior compared to you guys. Plus my english is not very...huh...evoluated? You see!! D'oh!

BUT, you have managed to reassure me so I changed my mind, I will stay with you guys. But I have to warn you, if you encourage me to talk about what I want, sometimes my posts will be weird! You have been warned! Mouahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

And Annatar, I would like to remind you that I am not from France, I say that I am French because my maternal language is french and I live in a french province in the great country of Canada! It's weird because my maternal language should have been english! Why? Because I'm half Irish and half native american! (A hell of a mix...) And my great grand mother on my mother's side came from England! Another mystery from Opalys's life!

Anyway, thanks for your replies, I needed to feel appreciated and JJ, nice to meet you! I'm a bit emotionnal lately, I hear people fighting everynight and sometimes I hear gun shots in my neighbourhood so I'm a bit edgy...and I feel that my life is meaningless...26 years old, no man, no kids, no place of my own and a boring job. What kind of life is that? Last year everything was great! I was coming out of my depression, I made a movie with a bunch of wildies, we even projected it at a local theater, I was the hostess of the evening! I was on stage, spotlights on my face, the audience laughing at my jokes and applauding! That night I was making an old dream come true! That same year me and two other coworkers were interviewed on T.V. (another dream come true!) We were like mini celebreties! And now, this year, no thrills! Just a plain ordinary job...Sorry, I am not seeking compassion, I just wanted to empty my heart. Sorry if it bothered you...

Anyway thanx for being there u guys, I love ya!

If I was not to shy about showing you my face (and body), I would give you the link to see the interview (so it would prove that I'm not making that up!). Oh well...